I live a vastly different life from the one i lived when i last posted on here. Wow. Changes. Lots and LOTS of changes.
I want this to be a place where i can write my thoughts and not be perfect.
I miss the freedom in being known.
I'm working on knowing myself and being me, just me, regardless of the place or people I'm around.I suck at it most of the time.
I get lonely. Alot.
I'm scared sometimes of this whole adult thing, it's not as fun as it looked and yet it's more exciting than i could have ever imagined.
I'm in the middle of so many paradoxes and conundrums that i find it hard not to get lost in my head.
I miss my friends and it's hard for me to make new ones.
God is good. He is present and always so faithful. I forget. Often...but what scares me more than forgetting is when I remember those things and it has little effect on my heart, head or emotions.
I lost 10 1/2 lbs in two and a half weeks.
For the next 10 months I'm on a journey called "lifestyle change". It's big.
I'm going bed.
More later...I'm just glad i started.
